1.06am

1.05 am. feel wanna cry.
why?
i cry becoz i knew that what i want but i feel that it is hurt to have it
i wan to cry becoz i knew that i should hardworking but i still keep lying on the bed
i wan to cry becoz i knew that i am degrading, i knew that others are working harder than me , i knew that everyone is put their effort on it but i keep just lazying.
i wan to cry becoz i am unhappy due to u
i wan to cry becoz i feel i am an outsider, i am out of contact

why i feel everyone not beside me ?
why i feel that u all are keeping distance from me ?
am i an alien or monster?

i feel that i wan to cry
but does everything settle after i cry?
i dont think so
then why should i cry ?
cry for expression?
but am i would be happier after i cry ?
i dont think so

tired for this kind of mindset.
hope to change
love the slogan " everything is possible with an willing heart"
really?

what i need to do for first is to build up the willing heart.
2nd is to let myself concentrate in the debate and study not other things
no relationship problems, no friendship problems
all non of my business

CANDY!!! try to be happier
dont try to be bad taste candy...
everyone love sweet candy

jia u for myself
what i can do only myself can save myself
no body can help me